New Year, trying to be a New Me

By Scarlett Maikish

It's finally a new year but the me still feels the same

I'm trying to better myself but nothing has changed

I'm trying to be more productive and stay as positive as possible

But it's so hard to do so when everyone around you is troubled

It's hard for me to communicate when it is my time to speak

because I'm always getting interrupted by everyone else's needs

I'm not trying to be selfish just wondering if I should stay quiet

because when I'm quiet everything runs smoothly

It's finally a new year and I'll try to be better

 but it's hard to when I'm always feeling under the weather

Sometimes when I'm sad

I feel like I make myself sick

I feel like a coat of fresh snow that’s trying to stick

The same goes for my happiness, my care, and my responsibilities

But sometimes it's hard to when there is no agility

I hope this year is good

 I really do hope so

I'm just trying to think of how I handle things solo

I think I'll  be happier I really will try

It's just so scary because life goes in the blink of an eye

Just today I had a realization

That 7th grade was years ago

And that was my obsessive fixation

That I finally let go

I'm getting older

I'm maturing into a woman and that’s the crazy thing

Is that when you become a woman you just got to handle things

I'm excited for this new year but also a little scared

Because the world is changing, and I have to be prepared